KIKIAM: "still I will always fight on for you"

Mary belongs to the words of a song.
I try to be strong for her, try not to be wrong for her.
But she will not wait for me, anymore.
Why did I say all those things before? I was sure.

Mary's alive in the bright New York sky,
the city lights shine for her, above them I cry for her.
Everything's small on the ground below, down below.
What if I fall, then where would I go, would she know?

SHE IS THE ONE.

-- but i have a purpose and i have to fight this villain i can't knock down.

SHE IS THE ONE. all that i wanted; and i will be haunted; this GIFT is my CURSE for now!

I see your face with every punch I take,

and every bone I break, it's all for you.

And my worst pains are words I cannot say,

still I will always fight on for you.





KAZAAAAM!!!

KIKIAM: "Sound & Conviction"

These are some of the songs that I kept on listening over and over for the past years up to the present. I don't know why -- but these are some of the components of my system.
Every song equates to reminisce. Every shuffled tune brings flashbacks and an awkward feeling that's actually the same during the time when i was just like using one of 'em to be a compensation.
Retrospection -- remembering the times, those happy smiles and cloudy downfall.

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During my younger years when i was in Elemtary, we had an annual overnight Camping in our school starting when you reach the 4th Grade level. With lots of activities and stuffs.
That time MP3 players and iPods were not invented yet, even mp3 or camera phones though.
So at the middle of the night when lights are off there was this awkward silence, all i can hear are my classmates whispering some gossips. I had this cassete tape played on my walkman with earphones on. It's a Savage Garden album -- Santa Monica was my favorite cut from that album.
I wanted to play it on repeat till i'll be gone asleep but unfortunately i had to rewind it back and forth. I don't even have a discman that time. Poorass.

Last Week, in a sober day i was browsing youtube and i remember SG's song so i searched for it.
I was expecting to view the music video but it's unavail. Instead, i just listened to the song and downloaded it so I can now set it on repeat mode on my Media Player. I really liked the emotions delivered by Darren Hayes on that song and the lyrics as well. It Supplements the cold weather and supports a melancholy state of feeling somehow.


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From the Album "The Science of Things" bought by my deceased Sis/Cous as a gift for my Birthday -- the song Letting the Cables Sleep by the BUSH is a material of her immortal memories for me.
Every now and then i always remember her like a pictured-out album cover. Where there were a certain shades of green on it that would always remain as a symbol of her loving memory.

"Whatever you do is alright, whatever you say is all good"
-she's always been a cheerleader.

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Came Year 2005 where screamo was a sound of music. The time that the genre was not overrated yet & abused by making it as a fashion sense. Darn! Well, in my case i did'nt like much of but some of those artists which has a good substance in their songs.
Like when i recently heard again the song Gifts and Curses by Yellowcard i remembered the time when i was liking someone and made a one line lyric from the song to be a caption on a photo.

"I see your face in every punch I make"


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i saw a box full of my old cd's -- it was actually ruined by the typhoon last june of 2008. so when i try to pull up some things on it, i found my favorite stuffs like coldplay, metallica (the master of puppets album), the nirvana unplugged, i even tried to play it and it's working. oyea. so i kept on pulling up everything out of the box -- and here it goes i found the local ORANGE & LEMONS (darn!) but when i open the cd case there's nothing inside. but the album cover and the list of tracks are still readable. so i decided to download the songs either.

I really liked the song Lihim especially during the time when i was in a bus to Roxas City.
and Here comes my illness again of playing a song on repeat. I really could relate much of the ponding lyrics and its perfect melodic tune for my emotions during that time.
I was wooting on it 'cause apparently it counts more on my daily segment of denying the fact that I AM into someone still.

ERASED!


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For now i am making a good soundtrack.
for me to ignite the boring shades of grey on me.
incomprehensible you said.
and yes me too!



Playing: Color & Style

KIKIAM: "Kakanta lang para makabenta"

SANTA MONICA

In santa monica in the winter time
The lazy streets so undemanding
I walk into the crowd
In santa monica you get your
Coffee from
The coolest places on the
Promenade
Where people dress just so
Beauty so unavoidable everywhere
You turn
Its there I sit and wonder what am i
Doing here

But on the telephone line i
Am anyone
I am anything I want to be
I could be a super model or
Norman mailer
And you wouldnt know the
Difference
Or would you

In santa monica all the people got
Modern names
Like jake or mandy
And modern bodies too
In santa monica on the boulevard
Youll have to dodge those
In line skaters
Or theyll knock you down
I never felt so lonely
Never felt so out of place
I never wanted something more
Than this

But on the telephone line i
Am anyone
I am anything I want to be
I could be a super model or
Norman mailer
And you wouldnt know the
Difference
On the telephone line I am
Any height
I am any age I want to be
I could be a caped crusader or
Space invader
And you wouldnt know
The difference
Or would you

KIKIAM: "Special sa Kaibigan ko"

PAREKOY, sobrang happy bday!!!!

MR. MATTHEW ELMO SUAREZ.

TALIBONG1

KEWPEE

WISHING YOU ALL THE BEST.

**sa sunod.

KIKIAM: "Eto! para sa'yo at kainin mo ng buong-buo"

kikiam Delivery no. 1:

Ito'y para sa mga taong walang paninindigan.

para sa mga katulad niyong nang iiwan sa iri.

EAT THIS!!

what's good about the passion that you're cooking is just you simply savor the taste while it last. -- the reason why it'll seemingly vanish when you take em for granted and live along eating your regrets.

SPECIALTY SPECIALTY

Masama bang magyabang??

- marami naman kasing version yan dude eh.

merong mayabang na wala namang ibubuga, meron ding mayabang na (haay!) may ipagmamayabang din. merong mahirap, mayaman, payat (akala mo naman ang macho), pangit haaay ang dami talaga.

uso ba talaga yun? minsan nga habang naglalakad ako sa mall pag nakatingin yung mga tao sakin na papraning ako dahil baka nagyabang o mayabang yung dating ko. hehehe.

pero meron din naman advantage kapag mayabang ka diba? like sa basketball dapat medyo mayabang ka (hindi fighting spirit yun!) para ma e-intimidate mo yung kalaban. SPECIALTY kung baga. wasak na specialty tsong.

Pero minsan ang mayayabang na mi pera ay nakakadulot ng frustration sa kapwa.

kagaya nito:

"John at Nel sa MALL" (hindi totoong pangalan)

si Nel ay isang trendy person maraming alam about sa mga stores na kung saan ka makakabili nito, ganyan etc. pero hindi masyadong ma-pera. si John naman ay isang super posero gayagaya puto maya pero ma-pera.

Nel: umm. pare sandali mi titingnan lng akong sapatos sa Sports Center ha.

John: sama nalang ako.

Nel: cge. nasa ground floor yun eh. tara.

Nel: eto, eto yung bibilhin ko nxtwk pagka sweldo dude. ilang buwan ko ring inipunan to.

***skate or die NIKE

John: WOW! SOBRANG GANDA! dito ka lang naman pala bumibili. akala ko ino-order mo yang mga SB's mo eh.

Nel: yung iba ino-order. pero since mi available stock sila ng S or D. dito na ako bili.

John: pare gusto ko yan. sobra!

Nel: mamili ka nalang ng iba. ayan madaming designs.

Kinabukasan binili ni JOHN ang Skate or Die na NIKE. hahahahaha.

kawawa naman si NEL. ang yabang talaga ni JOHN, lalo na nung kinonfront siya ni Nel na kung bakit naman binili niya yun e alam naman niyang pinagiipunan ni Nel yung sapatos. sagot niya,

"E SA GUSTO KO RIN EH, MALAS MO LANG E NXTWK PA PERA MO! SAKIN E ALAM MO NAMAN"

YABANG???!!! hahahahaha.

yan yung mayabang na mayaman na mi ibubuga pero ang bastos ng ugali! hehehe.